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Journey to Self-Discovery: The Purpose



In college I read Ralph Waldo Emerson’s Nature and Henry David Thoreau’s Walden and immediately I wished to have an experience such as theirs; an authentic discovery of life with a transparent eyeball, living deliberately, but obligation and rationale conquered. In January of 2014 I met someone, a Lonely Bird in the Sky who asked me one simple question, “why are you here,” and it has made all the difference.

Shortly after our relationship took hold I began to write fervently as the embers danced wildly, setting ablaze a facet that had long slumbered sulkily along. I wrote the following as I grew a bit frustrated with our relationship as boundaries began to reveal themselves.

Curiosity and Freedom
We are confined by the boundaries we so carefully build to keep us safeguarded. But they are truly masked cowardice’s as we hide from the many faces we encompass, afraid to loosen the reign we have on those particular ones of social stigma. This is a terrible hindrance of potential greatness. If we are not able to freely explore the natures of the self, our emotional response to be content will convince the self to be satisfied by the mundane. The curiosity will subside and the mind will always retreat to the center when it is found too close to the limits of its boundaries. If you cease to seek the answer to your “why”, the question will stop asking as curiosity and freedom are the most of companions.
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 The purpose of my trip: traveling freely around the world without constraint or obligation, is to withdraw from all conformities in order to have an original relation to the universe; to behold God and nature face to face, determining the nature of the two and my relation to them. Embracing the freedom I will refrain from as many boundaries as possible. Curiosity, free to wonder, will allow truths to prevail; ultimately shedding some light on the purpose of my existence. And all to reveal, as the question so wisely asked of me continues to mystify, why am I here.

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